Welcome!

Hello everyone, so I have finally set up Fat Bird Blog!

 As some of you may know from Twitter, I have been chatting about wanting to lose weight. I have known for a while that I ought to, but even after buying my first ever pair of size 18 jeans I still didn't have the motivation to do it. Not helped by the fact that the Other Half (OH) doesn't really mind. 

The day I just went shi- I gotta do something, was Christmas Day (2010 obviously) when an ad-lib photo was taken of me and I look like actual Fat Monica from friends. I am not exaggerating. One day I'll get the photo from my sister and show you.

I'd been thinking about how I could do this and when talking to a bunch of skinny beautiful girls I decided I should do a blog to track my loss. Yes, loss. I hope.

By making it public, I hope that it'll 'shame' me into losing it, a bit like on my sister blog when I admitted I had a spending addiction. It truly was the best step I took and I'm well on my way to being reformed!

So here's my story so far. My weight has been so up and down, I've got motion sickness just thinking about it. But rather than talk about it, I'll show you. Here are some photos that show my journey so far:

(Left) My 18th Birthday - March 2006: I always carried a little weight but I was OK, a 12-14. (Right) Out for a friends birthday November 2007 - It had piled on in around 6 months.

 (Left) My weight gain peaked NYE 2007 - I was a 16 top, probably 18 bottom but had stretched old jeans that were 16's. (Right) Starting to lose March 2008, here's me as Bridesmaid at my sisters wedding May 2008.

The last time I was happy with what I looked like, when I met OH December 2008. I had lost around 4.5st and back to a 12-14. I remember my 3rd 'date' with OH was 22/12/08. We baked cakes and I wore skinny little denim shorts, black tights and a black jumper. I looked hot even if I do say so myself!!

And here's me last night. All back on. I'm a 14 top and 18 bottom. Didn't think people could stomach me in pants and bra, so leggings it was. (Oh and the tummy holding in thing, done it since I was 14 so do it without thinking now, trust me, I have full bakery under there - baps and rolls!!)

Now I'll admit something to you all. When I lost the weight in 2008, it was not all my own hard work. I had help from a tiny little pill called Reductil. I went to my GP, and asked for support to lose weight. For a month I attended the Nurse's weight loss clinic and I lost around 10lbs myself. They then told me as I'd made the effort, they'd give me something to help speed it along. Reductil is a gastric band in a pill. It makes you feel fuller quicker and suppresses appetite. I had to stop taking it immediately January 2009 as I developed mild tachycardia (fast heart rate).

Three guesses what happened?

Yup, I put it all back on like a stereotypical fat person. At the time my excuse was I'd had no time to prepare myself without it. One day I took them, the next I didn't. I couldn't handle having an appetite and hunger, so, I ate. Pathetic excuse much? Yuh.

Any of you thinking wow I gotta get me some of that, well you can't. It's since been withdrawn by the NHS. No idea why.

I'm not going to cheat this time. I want to lose it all by myself. I want to be back to a 12-14, and around 10.5-11st again (may seem heavy still, but that what I was Dec 2008). I wouldn't mind being there by Christmas, but if I could do it sooner well that's just the icing.

This is by far my biggest challenge, possibly more so than not spending, and I want to make it public *in case* anyone happens to read this.

Oh and the name? Well that comes from my own self degradation. I will say "yeah pass a biscuit, I'm a Fat Bird already!" If people know I know I'm large, then they can't put me down as I got in there first.

Anywho, if anyone else wants to join in then post a comment below, would love to help out others along the way :)